Worship Through Worry

By Claire Newrones

Since I can remember I’ve loved Jesus and music and singing worship songs in church.

Worship, through the form of music and singing, has always been what God has used to speak to me and allow me to connect with Him deeper. Starting my junior year of high school, the gift He gifted me with the opportunity to serve and lead in worship.

When I am going through something or overwhelmed with racing thoughts, doubts, or anxiety, sometimes the only thing I can do is throw on worship music and let the truth of the lyrics about who God is, what his word says, and what he thinks about me fill my mind instead of filling it with the worries that at times feel impossible to let go of.

I love singing worship because there are times when I don’t always have the words to say to either thank the Lord, or to cry out to him for help, but God always makes a way to speak to me through music.

Not so coincidentally, since I was a little girl I have gravitated towards the book of Psalms, even before I realized that they were songs. What I admire about the Psalms is the writer's complete honesty with the Lord in whatever he was going through, while at the same time always reminding himself of the truth of who God is and giving the Lord praise in the middle of his suffering.

A great example of this is in Psalms 13:1-6 where David cries out to the Lord and says “How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look on me and answer, Lord my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death, and my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,” and my foes will rejoice when I fall. But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing the Lord’s praise, for he has been good to me.”

‭‭There has always been something about the “but I” in this verse. After crying out to God in honesty, coming back to “but I trust in your unfailing love.”

I think this is sometimes what singing worship feels like for me and the gift that worship through music is to all of us. It’s the “But I trust” in the midst of our struggles and the reminder of who is in control, who is trustworthy, faithful, and worthy to be praised.